Not on Bread Alone

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My plate was piled high with a heap of rice and beans adorned with a plump chicken leg on top. This was a meal I actually like just fine though not my usual. I’m a pretty healthy eater, but on this day I wasn’t sure I’d be able to hold the entire amount of food served on my plate. It was delicious to taste and I quite enjoyed every bite, but seriously I was full at halfway.


Last week, I sat across the table from the thinnest, sweetest Haitian sister you’d ever hope to meet. I was given the opportunity to go and minister to almost 30 Haitian Pastors’ Wives by serving them at their first ever conference. I feel ultra blessed to have been given such an amazing opportunity!


As we continued to share a wonderful lunch together I became very aware of the excess food on my plate and I had no idea what to do with the portion I could not eat. I was so full! I knew for sure it was NOT going to be wasted though! Do I offer a little of my leftovers to everyone at my table so it seems fair? Do I offer it to the two ladies seated closest to me on my end of the table? If I offer it to one or two will it appear I’m playing favorites? I silently prayed and asked God to help me know what to do. In just a few moments, my sister, Edithe kept eyeballing my chicken and eventually pointed to the leg I’d barely touched. I locked eyes with her and nodded my head in the form of a question as if to ask if she wanted my chicken leg. With a huge grin, she reached out and grabbed my leg (well, my chicken leg) and immediately wrapped it in a napkin and placed it inside her purse. I felt time stand still for a brief moment. What had I just witnessed? I was told these women often eat every other day because they want to be certain their children get to eat at least one meal each day. Was this chicken leg going to be the one meal her children would share on this given day? I held my breath so not to break out in a full on sob. This moved me in ways I’ve never, y’all. I began to love this woman from a place of such deep compassion almost instantaneously. I can’t even explain what I began feeling as I was able to share such a filling meal with this precious small group of ladies that go to bed most nights with a growl in their tummy from hunger.


I spent the next few days reflecting on this experience. In fact, I’m home with plenty of food all around me and I’m still finding myself trying to dissect how it must feel to literally cry out to God in prayer to provide my next meal. In doing so I’m continually reminded of what God’s word says in Matthew 4:4


Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'”


I’m convinced the lovely Haitian women God placed in my path were not depending on the bread alone to sustain their lives. They were truly depending on every word that comes from the mouth of God for sustenance one simply cannot explain.

My Haitian sisters are rich in the Lord and have so much to offer that we can learn from. I felt such a presence of the Holy Spirit as I brushed elbows with such wonderful Christian ladies for three days. Our needs look radically different, but we need each other and that my friends, is a beautiful picture of God’s Kingdom! These women have nothing yet worship God as though they have everything through faith!


Lord, I lift my Haitian sisters up to you and ask that you continue to provide their daily bread. Fill their bellies and their children’s bellies with life giving nutrients that come from your hands. Please bless their lives in abundant ways. Help guide our hearts to know how you would desire to use us to minister to the needs of our brothers and sisters in Christ who are located in some of the poorest locations of our globe. Help us be ready to say, yes Lord send me!  Amen.



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Enough Is Enough

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god_is_enough-1694927It has been quite a while since I have posted anything.  It’s not because I haven’t been spending time in the Word, or because I have been too busy.  It’s simply because I have been in the trenches.

My husband and I moved 4 months ago to begin a new journey in ministry.  Through this journey, every pressure and attack from the enemy that you could imagine came full force.  The fact that we were planting a church was enough to draw the attention of the enemy and the battle has been a tough one.

I have shared before about my journey to recognize my identity as a daughter of The King.  I have discovered that I was only hitting the tip of the iceberg.

As women, the enemy knows the best and, sadly, easiest way to affect our walk with the Lord and our relationships with others is to somehow convince us that there is something wrong with us.  Someone hurts us and we think “if only I were…” or “if only had done…”   Layer after layer of hurt or disappointment piles on layer and layer of lies from the enemy of our souls.  These whispers are repeated every time we are reminded of a past hurt or a failure.  We start believing those lies and we find ourselves in a pit of despair or we find ourselves in competition with everyone around us to prove that there is nothing wrong with us, that we are enough.

There has never been a doubt in my mind that I am enough for God to love me.  There is nothing that I could ever do or not do that will change how much He loves me.  He loves me “beyond my wildest imagination” (my husband’s favorite phrase).

I have discovered that my issue is not whether or not I am enough, but is God enough.

Trust me, that is not an easy one to admit – I am a pastor’s wife for goodness sake.  Of course God is enough!  But my actions have betrayed my belief.

If I truly believed that God is enough, the actions of sinful people, wouldn’t send me into a tailspin and give the enemy the ammunition he needs to put me in the pit.  If I truly believed that God was enough, my sinful actions wouldn’t cripple me with guilt.

When we fully discover that God is enough and our only goal is to glorify Him in the midst of the harshness of this sinful world, we can truly be who He created us to be.  Nothing that has happened to me, or that I have done has caught God off guard. He has redeemed every ugly situation in my life to be used to form me and give me the grace I need to help others.

I am in a war with the enemy to remove 50 years of “you are not enough” and replace them with “God is enough”.  I am going to fight the enemy’s lies with the Word of God by memorizing Ephesians 1.  God’s lavish love is enough!

Let’s do this!



(With thanks to the love of my life for fighting with me and for me and helping me to understand what “enough” really means.)

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Does God Give You More Than You Can Handle?

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How many of you have heard a sweet, old lady’s voice in the midst of your troubles saying “God won’t give you more than you can handle?”


I have heard that phrase more times than I’d like to say….mostly coming from brothers and sisters in Christ. When I was younger and felt like this phrase would echo in every circumstance, I felt it to be like an encouraging boost to get me back on the path to overcoming my struggle. Surely a good God who loved me and worked out all things for my good wouldn’t give me more than I could bear….right?


As much as I think this may bust so many people’s bubbles, that statement is so wrong and now even makes me cringe when I hear people vehemently profess this untruth. So let’s dig in a little deeper and understand why this declaration of God’s character is false.


First let’s look at Job. This is a famous story in the Old Testament of a man who “was blameless—a man of complete integrity. He feared God and stayed away from evil.” (Job 1:1). People who have heard this story over and over know of a man who had it all, but then all was taken away from him. Job lost all of his animals and farm workers, his children all died (on the same day), he lost his health when boils showed up all over his skin, and his wife asked him to curse God. We know of this man because he did lose it all, but didn’t curse God and because of his faithfulness, God restored all that Job had lost. And that’s where most of us stop at when reading this story. A good guy that bad things happened to and then God gave it all back to him.

Until recently this was all that Job’s story had ever been to me….until I read chapters 3 and 6. Job speaks in this passage about how he doesn’t have the strength on his own anymore and that in his humanity, he would rather die than deal with these struggles on his own. We see Job, this blameless man of integrity who feared God say “God has allowed more than I can bear in my own strength, and because of the intensity of my struggles, I would rather be delivered from them in death than endure them any longer.”


In the New Testament, you can look at Paul’s words in some of my favorite verses of Scripture that remind me so often that Jesus is all I need. In 2 Corinthians chapter 12 it says, “But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”


Paul also tells the people of Corinth about his own journey in 2 Corinthians 1:8-10.

We think you ought to know, dear brothers and sisters, about the trouble we went through in the province of Asia. We were crushed and overwhelmed beyond our ability to endure, and we thought we would never live through it. In fact, we expected to die. But as a result, we stopped relying on ourselves and learned to rely only on God, who raises the dead. And he did rescue us from mortal danger, and he will rescue us again. We have placed our confidence in him, and he will continue to rescue us.


Paul, one of the greatest preachers of all times is admitting here that he was overwhelmed with trouble beyond his ability to endure. If God never gave us more than we could handle, why would Paul make this statement. A man of great faith acknowledged his inability to persist in his troubles apart from the dependence on the God who sustained Him through it all.


Even one of the most quoted verses of Scripture, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,” (Philippians 4:13), reiterates our strength in Christ to accomplish anything. Apart from him, our weaknesses overpower us. But because of Him, we can find hope in the One whose might carries us along when we can no longer handle it alone.



The premise of Scripture is not to tell us that God won’t give us more than we can handle, but rather that when we are pressed in from all sides and feel like we are desperately trying to tread the deep waters, those are the times that Christ can demonstrate HIS strength best in our weaknesses. He will give us more than we can handle in order to fully rely on Him.


So the next time you’re in the center of despair and a friend, or stranger, or a little old lady recites this phrase to you “God won’t give you more than you can handle,” remember that when it feels like the world’s corners may be closing in on you, you may have been dealt more than you can bear. But even then, in what seems like a desolate circumstance, God is using it to draw you to see His purpose, His power, and His plan.

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Hemmed In

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Have you ever felt hemmed in by your circumstances?  I have!

The Israelites knew all too well what it felt like to be hemmed in on all sides!

God led them to encamp by the sea, directly opposite Baal Zephon.  (Exodus 14:2)

Interestingly, God’s plan the entire time was to make Pharaoh think the Israelites were wandering around confused.  (Exodus 14:3)  All the while, God was positioning everyone in the perfect location for some serious victory to go down!  Woo Hoo

In Exodus 14:4 is says, “And I will harden Pharaoh’s heart, and he will pursue them.  But I will gain glory for myself through Pharaoh and all his army, and the Egyptians will know that I am the Lord.”

So imagine, you are hemmed in and God has hardened your enemies heart or placed you in circumstances that don’t fully make sense all because He has this plan.  A plan that works according to His will and is certain to bring Him glory!

Does that give you any better perspective on your circumstances?  It sure did me!

I hate it that I struggle with having faith in tough times, but I’m so thankful for God’s word!  His Word is alive and will always serve as the needed reminder for how faithful He is to work His perfect plan out in my life.  I need only be STILL!

The Egyptians – all Pharaoh’s horses and chariots, horseman and troops – pursued the Israelites and overtook them as they camped by the sea near Pi Hahiroth, opposite Baal Zephon.  As Pharaoh approached, the Israelites looked up, and there are the Egyptians, marching after them.  They were terrified and cried out to the Lord.  (Exodus 14:9-10)

Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid.  Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today.  The Egyptians you see today you will never see again.  (Exodus 14:13)

Did you get that?  NEVER. SEE. THEM. AGAIN.

I love what Moses tell them next!

Exodus 14:14

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still.”

I think you know how this story goes, but for the sake my excitement…let’s see.

Exodus 14:15-18

Then the Lord said to Moses, “Why are you crying out to me? Tell the Israelites to move on.  Raise your staff and stretch out your hand over the sea to divide the water so that the Israelites can go through the sea on dry ground.  I will harden the hearts of the Egyptians so that they will go in after them. And I will gain glory through Pharaoh and all his army, through his chariots and his horseman.  The Egyptians will know that I am the Lord when I gain glory through Pharaoh, his chariots and his horseman.”

Exodus 14:21-25

Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea, and all that night the Lord drove the sea back with a strong east wind and turned it into dry land.  The waters were divided, and the Israelites went through the sea on dry ground, with a wall of water on their right and on their left.  The Egyptians pursued them, and all Pharaoh’s horses and chariots and horseman followed them into the sea. During the last watch of the night the Lord looked down from the pillar of fire and cloud at the Egyptian army and threw it into confusion.  He jammed the wheels of their chariots so that they had difficulty driving.  And the Egyptians said, “Let’s get away from the Israelites!  The Lord is fighting for them against Egypt.”  Then the Lord said to Moses, “Stretch out your hand over the sea so that the waters may flow back over the Egyptians and their chariots and horseman.”

Not ONE of them survived!!!

This passage of scripture has served as a healing balm to my heart over the last few weeks.  I’ve read and re-read this passage at least a half-dozen times.  Whatever your “enemy” is right now God is fighting for you and in ways we cannot see and I’m certain we will see His deliverance…we need only be still.



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Is Your Smart Phone Being Used as a Snare?

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My heart rate elevated just a bit and a slight brain fog fell upon me as I suddenly became aware I had forgotten something very important. I even noticed my palms getting sweaty as I tightened the grip on my steering wheel. Then, I was accompanied by a deep sense of disappointment while driving in the opposite direction of my house. I literally could not even think straight for a brief moment! The ultimate separation anxiety ceased me 10 miles out of town while heading in the opposite direction of home!

I left my CELL PHONE in the laundry room! How could I?

I was headed to the mall with my hubby and all I could think of was how in the world are we going to find each other if we go into different stores. How did people keep from getting lost 20 years ago, anyone?

I’m not going to lie to y’all. I pouted on the inside for several more miles as I began to think of all the things I could NOT do without my phone during the next few hours away from home.

  • Check my Facebook/Instagram
  • Check my Le-Vel Page
  • Check E-Mail and keep the junk deleted (yes I’m OCD)
  • Call/Text as desired
  • Kindle – books on the go
  • Coupons for shopping available on Apps

While some of the things on my list are fine when used with boundaries, I began to face the harsh reality that I have absolutely NO boundary lines when it comes to using my phone. It’s seems I’ve allowed anything to go! Phone dependence was slamming me right between the eyes and I didn’t like it at all! No wonder I’m so distracted and many of my days feel somewhat less than productive. Clearly, I’ve been guilty of filling any and every void moment with some function from my phone. I have a feeling that I’m not alone in this, just sayin’.

I have thought about this little incident a lot since it happened. I’m trying to be sensitive to how the Lord would have me make changes that would allow Him to intervene in my heart because undoubtedly I’m being snared by the enemies trap on this one. It’s easy to make excuses and come up with justification for why we do certain things the way we do. In fact, that was my first defense mechanism.

I quickly began rationalizing my need to run such tight social media outlets because I’m super busy and have much to get done during the workday.

  • I use social media to run my cloud-based nutrition business called Le-Vel.
  • I connect with people all over the country for professional CDI consulting.
  • I use private messaging so people can reach me in real time.
  • I stay connected with ladies for ministry purposes at church.
  • I keep up with our CAMO ministry correspondence (non-profit archery ministry)
  • I keep up with family and friends more easily.
  • I follow other Christian leaders for mentorship and encouragement.

Our best of intentions can go bad girls. It’s true. We don’t like to admit it when things turn out this way, but thank goodness our Lord loves us enough to intervene upon our lives and show us where we are about to drive ourselves off the proverbial cliff.

This little “not so trivial” lesson of forgetting my cell phone turned out to pack a pretty powerful punch in my heart. I became hyperaware during my evening of shopping and dinner as to how much I allow my phone to steal little moments that I simply cannot get back.

  • I actually talked more while we were driving in the car.
  • I was present in the moment at dinner that also provoked more conversation.
  • I stayed in close communication with my hubby when I would change locations in the mall so we could easily reconnect with each other.
  • I was not influenced or distracted in any way by the posts on my social network on Facebook or Instagram throughout the evening.
  • I was not tempted to feel anxiety that I’m not doing as much as so and so…
  • The negativity that we are often forced to overlook on social media was not in front of me; therefore I came out unscathed the entire evening.

The enemy is predictable and knowing this fact as we see in 1 John 2:16 we need to ready our lives with proper boundaries that work for our good.

For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world.


I’m not suggesting that we surrender our phones and return to handwriting letters via snail mail because we are obviously still called to live in this world. The tricky part is NOT becoming of this world. We have to be in Christ and allow His discipline to flow through us so we can brightly shine refreshment to the world. We have to find a way to do things differently and be noticed because of that difference.

God doesn’t mind you and I having smart phones that allow us to be more efficient in some of our work. He DOES mind us checking Facebook every 15 minutes throughout the day because we don’t really like the work we are doing and it gives a little break from a particular task we dislike. He DOES mind us looking at everyone’s life and constantly wishing ours were different. He DOES mind us getting distracted by how much progress so and so seems to be making with their ministry while ours is a mere thought. I could go on, but you get the idea with me.

I’m suggesting this first small step in the right direction:

  • Only allow for checking social media at designated times throughout the day. If it means deleting the phone APP to prevent the temptation then consider making alterations that will ensure success!


Lord, forgive me for constantly failing you in these little areas of life. I lift my sisters reading this who also feel this same way. We are not alone and we need each other for encouragement. I know you don’t condemn us, but you love us enough to convict our heart when we are a little “off” on things. Father, I ask that you fill every void in our heart and remove any lingering desire to find validation and fulfillment from social media sources. Help us to use those sources as nothing more than encouragement in pure moderation. I ask that you speak to each of us individually about how we need to set our smart phone usage up in our daily lives so that we benefit from them, but don’t find ourselves hindering what you have called us to do in your Kingdom. Amen.


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“Excuse me, but I’m sending you to Haiti,” says the Lord Thy God.

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Out of nowhere my husband got an unexpected opportunity to go to Haiti to serve with other pastor’s a few weeks ago. There was a Haitian pastor’s conference planned and someone couldn’t go last minute. The details quickly fell into place and before I knew it my hubby was taking to the friendly skies!  This same week, I was traveling for work as well.  Accident? Not a chance!

I checked my bag with Delta and arrived to my gate a little early when the announcement came on the speaker. “Ladies and gentleman, we have a mechanical issue and the mechanics are coming from Cincinnati to repair our plane, but they have not left Cincinnati yet.” Immediately I knew I was in trouble for the sake of my connection so I called the help desk rather than opt to stand in the long line of disgruntled people. I changed flights without any problem so now I was all set. As soon as I hung up the phone another announcement was made saying they had changed planes altogether and it would be located at the neighboring gate.  So now I’m thinking that stinks because I could have potentially left on my original flight to arrive at my destination close to the original time. Not so. Lines filled with several unhappy people because this little snafu was wreaking havoc on everyone’s travel plans and connections. Me being the experienced traveler that I am, I decided to hold my cool and just ask the gate agent if I could somehow be compensated with Delta sky miles for my trouble since they clearly jumped the gun with having everyone rebook minutes before the new plane was issued. Long story short, I walked away with $100 voucher!  Score!

Me = 1 Delta = 0

After this happened, I began to sense the Lord might be up to something. I’m always open to opportunities to collect travel vouchers because we have served in Honduras twice already and those tickets are not cheap! Any little voucher amount helps. I recall simply whispering a little prayer to the Lord to provide more voucher money to help cover future airfare to serve Him.

I arrived into Atlanta to make my connecting flight when I found myself in a situation for volunteers willing to take a later flight out because they had oversold the flight by six seats. They were offering $400 to the people willing to take a later flight. I was doing the math thinking I would have totaled $500 for the day!  Not a bad day I’d say!!!  I couldn’t help but smile on the inside knowing my heart and the prayer I had whispered a bit earlier in the day. As time ticked away, there were problems getting enough volunteers to take a different flight so they increased the voucher amount to $600.  A cash incentive will MOVE people every. single. time.  I was now in the running for a total of $700 for the day!  WOW!   No joke, I ended up with $700 total that day! The vouchers are good for one year and can be used for international travel. God is amazing and can provide out of left field.  Score!

Me = 2 Delta = 0

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As it turns out, 2 weeks later, I’m scheduled to join a group of pastor’s wives from various states to go and minister to the Haitian pastor’s wives in mid-October. I could not feel more blessed to have this opportunity to serve with these ladies! Who knew? God knows!



My husband snapped this picture of a Haitian boat and it says, “Jesus knows” in Creole.

A few weeks ago I posted about God knowing my place and how I (we) don’t have to change our position with some motive to get noticed! Link here to read that post:

God Knows My Place

God is showing me as a reminder how He really does see me right where I am! He knows what we need just when we need it! It amazes me how God was already at work on my behalf to provide a way to serve Him before I had any idea I was going to Haiti! Serving the Lord is an exciting adventure and He loves to fulfill the desires of our heart! Remember ladies, God knows so just be available!



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Little Prayers Matter to God Too!

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I looked EVERYWHERE for the binder that held the beloved information of each little camp CAMO kid who has ever attended this fun event!  I keep things semi-organized and usually have no problem retrieving these said things.  Honestly, I’m just that person that can always lay hands on my files and stuff.  I may lose other trivial things, but not my papers. No.

On Sunday night at 10 p.m. I realized I still had not retrieved the binder holding all the camp information.  I went to the location where I knew that it was and it wasn’t.  Hmm, now what?  I looked a few other places that made sense to me.  Still, nothing.  I even went back again (multiple times) to a few of those places only to become befuddled by where this paperwork could possibly be.  I was a little out of sorts.

You have to understand, I was due to leave on a plane early the next morning and I had not fully packed!   The last camp CAMO for the summer was kicking off in about 10 hours and my camp leaders were going to have zero paperwork and no permission slip information if I didn’t find this binder!  I was already running extremely low on sleep because I had taken my hubby to the airport Saturday to catch an extremely early flight to Haiti. He had an opportunity to serve pastors in that region very unexpectedly.  I suppose I was a little anxious about this too.

I recall a moment of desperation that washed over me ever so profoundly.  I pulled out a chair to my empty dining room table and plopped down.  I said out loud in my empty house, “Lord, I really need those camp papers and I don’t know where they are.  I am so tired and I need some rest before I leave on a plane in the morning.  Holy Spirit can you please guide me to those papers?”  Immediately the thought entered my mind as if God was telling me, “go look in the laundry room.”  Y’all I did and they were on the counter under a few items that had been stacked together.  I quickly caught a glimpse of the striped binder edge and smiled the biggest smile and rejoiced with a Praise The Lord!  Thank you Jesus for finding my binder!

He wants to meet our every need.  I was so exhausted and a little stressed from all that had been going on in our lives as well as what was yet to be accomplished in the upcoming week.  He is so faithful to be our present help even when it means find a binder filled with paperwork.

Prayer changes ALL things.




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God Knows My Place

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I wrestle with this thing they call FOMO. Fear of missing out!  I don’t want to miss out on what God has for my life.  I’ve tasted His goodness in so many areas and it only leaves me longing for more of Him. The problem is I have this broken thing in me that provokes a behavior that kicks into action and I end up getting none of Him with a lot of self-induced exhaustion!  The very object of my worship transitions from a Holy God to the task at hand with a little less than desirable motive.  I’ve allowed myself to become so busy, too busy.  I’m in crisis management utilizing a task-oriented mindset to just get it all done!  Ironically, in my “crazy busy” I sometimes lose the real reason for any of it, Jesus.

I’ve questioned what needs to remain and what needs to go more times than I can count. Unfortunately, most days I feel as though I might be stuck in a hamster wheel with no option to ever get off!  It never feels safe to abandon a task.  Isn’t it bad to abandon your obligations to the Lord?  Should I have ever committed myself in the first place?   In God’s perfect timing, He has led me to a FREE summer training class called iBloom in Business! This opportunity crossed my path on Facebook no less. That’s a topic for another day. I’ve already gleaned the most restful nugget as a reminder of His grace!


“You do not have to leave your place to try to find a more noticeable one, in the hope that someone will discover your gifts and talents.” Christine Caine


When I read these words, it was like a breath of fresh air filling my lungs! I found myself with a sense of relief that I’d almost forgotten could exist in Him! This was such a much-needed reminder. Ahh!  You mean I don’t have to keep on and on doing all the multiple things I’m trying to do out of fear that NOT doing some of them will forfeit an opportunity God may present?

It’s true, I don’t dare get to write this post from a place that insinuates I live each day believing God Knows My Place. I have to be reminded at times.  Sometimes I get off kilter and start to strategize how I can position myself better to be connected to the right people to participate in the right activities so that I might be discovered for how awesome God made me for serving Him!  Yeah, I know. This sounds pretty prideful doesn’t it? As much as I don’t like to think of this as pride, I’m not sure what else you call it.  My broken human effort starts to get involved and oddly enough it looks very similar to the strategizing and decision-making we read about with Abraham and Sarah.  When we get involved implementing our plan instead of allowing God to do things in His time, it says we don’t trust Him and we know better through our efforts.  That’s pretty much pride.

I’m guilty of considering my age and dwell on the fact that I’m not getting any younger over here! The dialogue in my head proceeds, “Come on God, I’ve been preparing for this my whole life. When do I get to do this great thing I’m believing you for?” “Why does everyone else seem to be living the life they love 24/7 and I’m over here wrestling with My Place?” “When are you going to show me what it looks like?”

I’m so tired of all the tasks. I do a lot of good things. Actually, some things I do are great things! However, I’m caught in the rut that I read about all too often. Christian leaders warn about the need to find balance. I’m starting to understand how they speak to the topic with such authority. They too have been caught up in the snare and had to draw the line of NO MORE and surrender some things to God. Lysa Terkeurst wrote an entire study called, “The Best Yes.” I have to assume she’s trod this path before us. I want to be above the enemy’s snare so badly, but I’m just not. None of us are.

God has my (our) global positioning satellite coordinates infinitely on His radar and He has absolutely no need for me (us) to make calculated moves to enhance His view! Whether it is recognizing pride that I’ve mistaken for an overzealous desire to serve Him or a heart that is perfect for the task, His timing will be the right timing and not one second before.




He has My Digits


He Has Yours TOO!

Declaring today I will do a better job stewarding My Place well. Won’t you join me?








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What Might Have Been

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On this day, 9 years ago, I had planned to say “I do” to another man. The wedding date would have been July 7, 2007 (7/7/7). I had a ring and a promise to a man to spend my life with him. But that wedding date came and went without a walk down the aisle or someone standing there waiting to take me as his wife. For years that date only brought pain as a reminder of the heartache I had endured when my fiancé broke off our engagement and decided that our forever was not what he wanted his life to look like. My mom and dad, brother and sister, and friends can attest to the torture I felt trying to get past the scars this had left. I was angry at this man for hurting me. I was angry at myself for not being what he would have wanted. But I was more angry at God for allowing such a trial to pierce my heart bleeding depressed thoughts, doubts, loneliness, and unworthiness to flood my mind.
Slowly, I crept out of the ashes I had been left in and decided to try and stand once more. I knew Scripture about trusting in God’s plans and how he would take on all my cares for me, but I was being taught a lesson. A lesson that I can say today that I have finally recognized fully along with being able to be joyful about my pain.
That’s right. Joy in our suffering is something we have been asked to demonstrate as a believer in Christ. If you read in James chapter 1, Paul asks his fellow Christians to consider it an opportunity for GREAT JOY when troubles of any kind come our way. Any kind. I heard this verse so many times before. I have even quoted it to others in their times of need. However, until today, I have not been able to grasp it fully because I only saw my pain and not the JOY Christ brought from it.
I think I’m still working on the times when I will be able to actually consider it joy in the midst of my pain, when I’m on my knees in turmoil asking God to grant me some type of relief from the suffering I’m presently in. But, I have grown now to say that I can look back on this day from 9 years ago and count it great joy that I did not get married that day. This morning I remembered today’s date and actually smiled because I have seen the joy come through the pain. I am enlightened that without the pain I experienced then, I would not have the amazing man I am married to today or the sweet baby girl we get to call ours. I am joyful in the fact that God knew so much better for me than I knew for myself, and this allows me to grow my trust in Him all the more for what the future holds.
Joy in our pain may sound absurd, but remember that in Christ our joy is made complete. He brings us pure joy that nothing else in this life can match. When our eyes are focused on what He does for us, pain has seen no match in the Joy we can experience in Christ.

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These last few weeks have been a total blur for me.  Several months ago, God changed the direction of our ministry.  I say “our ministry” because my husband and I are “one”.  He has the calling of Pastor, it’s officially his title, but we are in this together.

When I say that God changed the direction of our ministry, I’m not talking about taking the left instead of the right at the fork in the road.  I am talking about a totally different road!

We have been married 34 years.  God has transitioned our ministries over the years – banker, youth minister (church of 100), youth minister (church of 250), youth minister (church of 6000), youth and associate pastor (church of 1000), associate pastor (church of 300), singles, missions and associate pastor (church of 1200), senior pastor (church of 300) and now CHURCH PLANTER (church of 50)!!!

It really doesn’t matter what size church you attend or what position you hold in your profession – it’s all about being obedient and serving God where He has placed you.

I am usually pretty quick to hear God’s voice when He is calling us to a new place.  I have to be honest…this one, not so much.  Oh, it’s not that God wasn’t speaking to me.  I was doing the “lalalalala, I can’t hear you” with my fingers in my ears.

When God was finally able to break through my selective hearing, I was ‘all in’.

Then the fun began.  Getting the house ready to sell, and show (it’s exhausting and incredibly satisfying) to have your house clean 24/7.  The craziness of saying good-bye to a church family that you have grown to love to do something that sounds crazy.

Through a situation that we could only describe as God working, we found 40 acres just outside of Nashville with a small home and began the process of purchasing.  Doesn’t that sound nice?  Well, it is a beautiful piece of land, but oddly enough, no mortgage company wants to loan on 40 acres.  We started the process, but the door was slammed shut when we were informed that my two incomes (CFO for 12 years at the same place & my own business) wouldn’t fully count.  My husband’s income was drastically reduced as well.  Door shut on our little piece of heaven.  Did I mention that we are living with friends during our transition?  Yep, 4 adults, 2 teenagers, 1 gecko, 2 tarantulas, and 5 dogs in one house!!!  Yes, 5 dogs!

We were disappointed but still trusting God.  The housing market in this part of Nashville is insane.  We got an app from our agent that let us see “real time” changes to listings.  We would find a house to look at and before we could even call to get it scheduled, the listing would change to ‘contract’ right before our eyes.  We chose to remain calm – if had ever met us, you would know that ‘calm’ might be a stretch.

We found our house and were able to make an offer.  We have a closing date in August.  I would like to add that we were only able to get a contract on this one because it WASN’T ON THE MARKET YET!  Our real estate agent’s daughter lives across the street and is friends with the seller.

Now to the point.  I was reading today in Matthew 26:3-5.

“Then the chief priests and the elders of the people gathered in the palace of the high priest,

whose name was Caiaphas, and plotted together in order to arrest Jesus by stealth and kill him.”

I have to say, in the last few weeks, I have been somewhat stressed.  I am fully trusting God, but there are still details that have to be dealt with when you move.  As I read that this morning, I sat on the deck I and chuckled at the mere thought of the chief priests trying to do ANYTHING to Jesus by stealth!

Can you just picture trying to sneak up on God?

That’s when God gently reminded me in the midst of my laughter that nothing that has been happening in my life has been in “stealth”.  God knew it all before we moved, He knows it all now, and even better, He knows what will happen tomorrow and the next day.

No matter what you are going through, remember that God is never caught off guard.  He is always prepared and always ready to protect and guide you.


Trusting in Him,


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