It’s Not Going to Be Perfect

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I like things to go a certain way. It’s a flaw. I have struggled with it, wrestled with it, my entire life. I have prayed for God to take it away. I have made a conscious effort to change my actions, my attitude. I honestly don’t know how to shake it. At the most inconvenient time, when I least want it to, there it is. It is my sin that easily besets me (Hebrews 12:1). It affects my relationships. It affects my testimony. I find myself apologizing. I feel guilty. I don’t want to be this person. It is a true struggle between my flesh and spirit (Galatians 5:17).

A few days ago, I was even wondering if I should continue to try at all. Should I just remove myself; get out of the way? Stay home more. Be less involved. The last thing I want to do is hinder the work and power of the Holy Spirit. I was sharing a bit of my heart with a treasured friend. She encouraged me to persevere, and then concluded, “But it’s not going to be perfect.” I have had those words running through my mind ever since. So simple. So profound. She said it sweetly. She said the truth. I am not to give up or get out. I have to come to terms with my thorn in the flesh.

Everyone has something they struggle with. We don’t like to admit it. We don’t like to be wrong. Our pride rises up. We justify. Paul put it this way, “So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given to me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (2 Corinthians 12:7-9)

It is humbling. Not being able to do it all, or be it all causes me to understand that CHRIST IS ALL I need. When I don’t measure up, when I let people down, when I disappoint myself, I know that Jesus is sufficient. I am reminded that He loves me at my darkest and calls me to love people in their weakness too. It is not going to be perfect. But it is worth it to continue. It is worth it to try, to struggle.

Maybe somewhere in my vast lacking, someone, somewhere will see the Lord coming through. Maybe they can see Christ in my apology. Maybe they can see that Jesus loves me despite my sin. Maybe something good can bring the Lord glory in spite of who I am. That is my prayer.

It is not a license to sin. Paul also wrote through the power of the Holy Spirit, “What shall we say then? Are we to continue to sin that grace may abound? By no means! How can we who died to sin still live in it?” (Romans 6:1-2) I have to (we have to) continue to fight to “discipline my body and keep it under control”(1 Corinthians 9:27). We have to fight the good fight, run the race, and keep the faith (2 Timothy 4:7). We can’t give up. We must push forward. We are works in progress. Our salvation is being worked out (Philippians 2:12) day by day, and our sanctification process will not be complete until we are made perfect in glory.

If you offend a brother or sister in Christ, do your best to make it right. If someone offends you, do your best to show grace, and, if needed, go to them to resolve the issue. If you can’t reconcile your differences for whatever reason, choose to love and be kind anyway. We are all in this together, and the eternal destiny of the world around us is too great to remain focused on trivial things. Love God. Love people. That’s how we live out our faith.

Be blessed!

 

 

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2 Comments

  1. Posted November 13, 2015 at 8:58 am | Permalink

    Ah, Miranda, we all have our thorns. Many times I expect too much from myself and expect things I do to be perfect or not at all. I’ve learned to tell myself, “Get over yourself. It’s not about You; it’s about Him.” He takes the imperfect and uses them to do His work, which is mind-blowing when you think about it. In our local racetrack scripture-cookie ministry, He used some drunk campers to spread the Word. Imperfect people with imperfect cookies. Wow. And so, once again I remind myself, “Get over yourself. It’s not about you.” Thanks for sharing your thorn with us, Miranda!

  2. Miranda Sharp
    Posted November 14, 2015 at 10:33 am | Permalink

    Thanks so much for reading and sharing your heart! “Get over yourself” is great advice for sure! 🙂

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